It’s been a while since I updated about my health. It’s actually been 60 days since the car accident happened.
Basically, there hasn’t been any setbacks since.
I’ll say that there are still roadblocks, though.
A few days ago, my pops asked if I could take him to Glendale (which is like 35 minutes away with no traffic). I immediately said no. There is no way I’m ready for that big of a drive.
It’s been three weeks since I drove on the freeway. Honestly, I haven’t been on the freeway since most of my drives have been to physical therapy. And the cardiologist.
I’m still operating under one day at a time. Sometimes, I’m operating under one hour at a time.
But since I feel like I’ve been making forward progress since then (I can’t say it’s all been peachy; my lower back is killing me at the moment and I have the usual anxiety issues), I think I’m ready to set some goals now that I feel like I’m no longer in Survival Overload Mode.
I’ve already resumed writing at The No-Look Pass. I think I’ve found my writing rhythm and, honestly, keeping up this health/personal blog has helped me find that groove.
But other goals?
*Lose 20 pounds.
I weigh quite a lot for my height. I’m not comfortable really sharing that at the moment but that is my immediate goal.
The stuff below kind of goes hand-in-hand with this goal.
*Walk a mile every day.
I was actually walking three miles nearly every day until, one day, I found myself catching my breath. Turned out that my body got so weakened after the hypertension and heart attack. I was told to slow down until then. I had only been walking a block since and I can feel my energy coming back a bit. Now I get to step it up.
*15 and then 20 minutes on the elliptical.
I had been doing 10 minutes.
*Weight training back on.
I don’t need to lift heavy weights. Just enough for resistance. Although my brother talked to me recently and said that my goal should be to be better than my younger self.
Yeah. I would love to bench press 275 pounds regularly. But that sounds REALLY absurd at the moment. One step at a time.
Yup. I used to bench 250 regularly, bro.
*Practice drives on the freeway.
I had kind of stopped doing that after I went to my high school reunion. Like I said, I kept my driving on the surface streets to go to physical therapy/chiropractor and the cardiologist.
At some point, I have to go back to driving on the freeways. Can’t be limited.
*Resume the podcast.
Talking still exhausts me. And talking to someone else is giving me a lot of anxiety these days.
I also love talking. I love talking to people. That’s just me. And I want to keep my podcast going. I took a break originally in the summer only for things to happen afterwards. I haven’t done a pod since the spring.
I did a practice run for myself earlier today. It tires me out. But it’s like any exercise; I should get better once I do a lot of reps.
I hope to resume the podcast this month.
All this while I try to manage my anxiety. Of course, I’ll continue my meditation (whaddup, HeadSpace!), which I have done for 50 straight days.
Oh, yeah. One more.
I haven’t gone in a loooong time. And seriously, it’s not me if I don’t do karaoke! Does my anxiety kick in during that time? I need to know. Tell me, baby girl, ‘cause I need to know.
Those are immediate goals. This will help me in the long run. I can’t say I’m the most goal-oriented person but this will help shape me to not only my full recovery, but also to be the best Rey Moralde I can be.
I always told people I was at my happiest in my late 20s (2007, to be exact).
Maybe I can be happy at 39 and 40.
I love you all. Thank you so much for sticking with me.